When voices take over"Let's die. Come on. We know you want it", whisper the voices dangerously low as I try to avert my eyes from the pills, which are lying right in front of me. My head is aching and my heart seems to be unable to calm down. Ba-dump. Ba-dump. Ba-dump. It beats faster with each second that passes. "Don't look away. Keep your eyes focused. Look at them. LOOK AT THEM!", the voices scream as I swallow hard and reach out for one of the pills. "How many pills do you think those are?", they ask curiously as I play around with it in my hands. "Enough to end it? Perhaps. You should try it.. There is nothing wrong with trying. Right?" Right. There is nothing wrong with trying. I want to nod. I want to whisper, scream, cry, yell - Yes. There is nothing wrong. Nothing at all. I don't belong here anyway. Right?
LoveI love you so much, there is nothing else I can say,for you are my everything - tomorrow and today.I wish I could hug you and express my love for thee,I wish I could make you realize how much you mean to me.
StayI want to stay right here.Here in this darkness,in this familiar place without colours, but with sadness.The light is frightening me,it's breaking my heart,it's only tearing my soul apart.
DrowningI'm drowning in this black sea.I'm crumbling beneath this pain.There is nothing you can do,trying to save me is just vain.
S-u-i-c-i-d-eI have nowhere to run to,no place to hide;my escape route is called suicide.
Let me vanishLet me vanish, disappear.Let me die, I can't stand it here.My heart only hurts and my soul keeps breaking,my body just won't stop with this shaking.
FarewellI'll break the rules. I'll fake a smile.I'll show you that about me there is nothing worthwile.I'll make you give up. I'll make you hate me,so that then I'll be able to say farewell to thee.
WaitingWhen breathing becomes too painful,when life is just too much,I take too many pills and wait for death's touch.
SmallSmaller, smaller, so so smallUntil on its own this body will fall.Breaking down, no thoughts will be left,when my life will be death's latest theft.