Hate"Do you hate me?", I asked as tears streamed down my face, while my soul shattered into small pieces over and over again. I felt so numb in that moment. So hollow. So empty. I wanted to whisper "It's okay, you know? I hate myself, too." But in the end I couldn't say anything. My vision was so blurred and my throat felt constricted so much, that speaking seemed nearly impossible. I swallowed loudly as I waited for your reply. For you flashing a devilish smile at me, while saying "Of course I hate you."
Do you have anything...?"God, Arthur!", he screamed into the other's bewildered face. "You don't understand anything, do you!? I'm tired of us dancing around each other. I'm tired of having to pretend that I don't love you! Can't you see that this isn't working anymore!? I love you. Okay?! Fuck. I..I love you so much that there are days, when I hate you, me, the whole universe because of it, because of our game of pretend. It fucking hurts, okay...?! But you know what - I'm done!" He breathed in sharply and closed his shimmering blue eyes. "I'm done. Either...either you get this now and tell me what you really feel, what's..really inside of your heart or..I'm gone for good, moving on.. Because I..." Alfred opened his eyes again, watching the British man before him, never being able to finish his sentence. His heart was beating uncomfortably fast, so that it almost felt as if it was trying to break his chest open. He swallowed loudly, and looked into Arthur's beautiful green eyes. Nearly losing h
When voices take over"Let's die. Come on. We know you want it", whisper the voices dangerously low as I try to avert my eyes from the pills, which are lying right in front of me. My head is aching and my heart seems to be unable to calm down. Ba-dump. Ba-dump. Ba-dump. It beats faster with each second that passes. "Don't look away. Keep your eyes focused. Look at them. LOOK AT THEM!", the voices scream as I swallow hard and reach out for one of the pills. "How many pills do you think those are?", they ask curiously as I play around with it in my hands. "Enough to end it? Perhaps. You should try it.. There is nothing wrong with trying. Right?" Right. There is nothing wrong with trying. I want to nod. I want to whisper, scream, cry, yell - Yes. There is nothing wrong. Nothing at all. I don't belong here anyway. Right?
LoveI love you so much, there is nothing else I can say,for you are my everything - tomorrow and today.I wish I could hug you and express my love for thee,I wish I could make you realize how much you mean to me.
StayI want to stay right here.Here in this darkness,in this familiar place without colours, but with sadness.The light is frightening me,it's breaking my heart,it's only tearing my soul apart.
DrowningI'm drowning in this black sea.I'm crumbling beneath this pain.There is nothing you can do,trying to save me is just vain.
S-u-i-c-i-d-eI have nowhere to run to,no place to hide;my escape route is called suicide.
Let me vanishLet me vanish, disappear.Let me die, I can't stand it here.My heart only hurts and my soul keeps breaking,my body just won't stop with this shaking.
FarewellI'll break the rules. I'll fake a smile.I'll show you that about me there is nothing worthwile.I'll make you give up. I'll make you hate me,so that then I'll be able to say farewell to thee.